I don’t make friends very well because I judge everyone and I kind of hate people although at times very secretively. I’m generally nice but will not put out an effort to actually make friends if it doesn’t come naturally. I mean honestly, I’m not gonna be all bullshitty and act like I love you and inquire about your day if I really don’t care. It’s kind of weird when I see people who have just met or only met once and they kind of already love each other and act as if they’ve known each other forever and are besties. I mean, I know how it is to put the effort out having been placed in many situations where I have to make friends in 30 minutes or less, and at times it just clicks like when I met that girl from Portugal and our conversation flowed so smoothly and I didn’t even need to pull out the conventional where are you from, what do you like, why are you here questions that I so very much loath yet find the NEED to ask when conversations go dull and blank. Also, I’m not one to you know, If I’m not really close to you or like even if I am, to go and say Hi unless I really care to. I’m not trying to sound like a bad bitch or whatever, in a sense I”m expressing the fact that I’m slightly awkward and anti-social. It’s a mixture of not giving a crap to try and pure sickness of bullshit when first meeting people. Maybe that’s why I find such happiness when traveling. I’ve only always traveled in large groups and I mean you just don’t have time for bullshit when you’re stuck with 100 people for that long of time. Plus you’re kind of forced to put down the front because who can put on a front for so long, and even if you attempt to it’ll be pulled down by the overall obvious appearance of the fake-ness. Idk just some thoughts of the day. I suppose this is a good way to see who actually clicks with me and who doesn’t. I mean is it wrong that a third of the time when I listen into conversations I’m thinking…what the fuck, why are you speaking and the other third…Dear God why am I wasting my time with the conversation and the last third… a combination of HAHAHAHA and I LOVE THIS? Eh, at this point I think not. I’m not really one to bullshit. I mean I literally will NOT do anything ie: express any means of obvious intense emotion unless necessary and 99% of the time, I’m not down to give the effort to express. Life is life and I’m just doin’ me in the end. I mean, doin’ me comes fairly easy and there is no unnecessary effort required at all.